Arshiyas, 30

I'm not going to even consider enabling one of my dating website accounts and copying the description section... I didn't even know this website had such function! I feel as if I have been lured into a trap by looking up the term "intellectual"! why do I use the word "trap"? hm... you could say I'm one of those lovesick sad dudes who believe strongly that love is that which their life truly misses... you know... that intricate "spice" without which the soup can't taste complete! it might very possibly be due to the systematically homophobic Iranian social environment that never fails to scare me by the prediction that if I don't actually "look" for a relationship I might very well remain single until I migrate after graduating which will be in 5 years (I study medicine here btw). relationships and dating have always been... big deals in my opinion again probably because of the restrictions by which I have been living all my life...
any way the point is that someone should just unplug me (or my laptop more specifically) when I start going on a dating website... I usually keep compulsively browsing profiles and digging all over the website for days trying to find a satisfying relationship (which I think I unfortunately have never experienced before... considering my definition of the term "satisfying").
any way... since I'm here let's get to describing! it of course is a rather absurd behavior to try to feed condensed pills of my subjective view of myself to you dear objective viewer but I guess I can be less of a pretentious @ssh*le... I have been standing here for a quarter... describe my self... right now I'm nearly crying listening to "the moon song" which reminds me badly of my recently spontaneously aborted long distance relationship... I usually prefer classical but this song is so touching at the moment... I like reading and talking a lot, but the top cool activity on my list is daydreaming (if it might be considered an activity!) and this song really helps